Dry well

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I’m a well. I’ve a tree growing from my core. It’s green and tall. It reaches the height more than I ever could, even more than what I was when full till mouth. Oh, those were the days! I was accompanied with people. They gave me their full love, installed machines to help me push water to them. More than I ever asked for; cleaned me, guarded me, beautified me.

Then the time came for retirement. I’d completed my service. Now I’m dry.  And deserted, it’s like I never existed, like I’m invisible to those who loved me. I don’t complain for that, maybe I’ve had all the love that I could have.  Does that mean hate quota has started? Those who throw garbage in me, how can they forget the clean water they withdrew? Those who spit in me, forgot the pure and cold water they drank off me? No, they cannot; these people are different. They never loved me, the one who did, must have departed. God, I don’t want to die suffocating from plastic and garbage. Could I at least ask for a peace in death? Please, spare a few stones and mud for my grave. Let me die with pride.

Music

As the year ends I try to save the beautiful memories. Here I go with ‘Top 25 most played’ playlist from my ipod.

1.       Undisclosed Desires – The Resistance by Muse

All against my will I had to work in night hours for quite a long time in 2011. That time made me close to music much more than before. Like a perfect companion, when whole world is asleep and I would work with my music on. One of such nights I heard Muse for the first time, this was the song. I fell in love with it badly.

   2.       Sunburn – Showbiz by Muse

Food for thought song, with haunting music.  The magic of piano, once I heard this one there is no stopping. I don’t know how it is not on the first, but it’s my most favorite of Muse.

   3.       Muscle Museum – Showbiz by Muse

For weeks I listened this only, on repeat mode. Lyrics are so realistic.

4.       Hysteria – Absolution by Muse

Muse again? Yes, there will be plenty.  It’s so like me; impatient.

5.       When I Look At You – The Last Song by Miley Cyrus

This is indeed the beautiful melody in nights alone. Beautiful lyrics make me think; where are you? Give me look…

6.       Supermassive Black Hole – Black Holes and Revelations by Muse

Bang! What great starting, music can also captivate.

7.       Time is running out – Absolution by Muse

Let go of past, all bad memories, is that all so easy? This is what I feel when I listen this one.

8.       Bliss – Origin of Symmetry by Muse

It’s bliss to me, and puts peace and joy in my mind.

9.       Bin Tere (Reprise) – I Hate Luv Storys by Shekhar Ravijiani

So sad dull song, how can this make to my playlist even? That’s what I thought when I heard this one for first few times. Infact this moved to top 25 in time when I visited home and my bother had played it on repeat. But slowly I've started liking this slow and soft version, with soothing music.

10.   Belly Dancer – by Akon

How desperately I try to shake my belly like a belly dancer. :D

11.   What I've Done – by Linkin Park

I wanted to tweak the playlist and move this to top most on number one. It was my ringtone for almost 6 months.

12.   Starlight – Black Holes And Revelations by Muse

This could be skipped from Top 25, but as I mostly play list sorted by artist, this had advantage.

13.   Map of the Problematique – Black Holes and Revelations by Muse

Whattay music man!

14.   Preminche Premava – Telugu movie Nuvvu nenu Prema by A.R.Rahman, Shreya Ghoshal, Naresh Iyer

I do not understand a word of this; this is soul song, so soothing.

15.   Ring My Bells – Insomniac by Enrique Iglesias

My lullaby; helps keep away insomnia.

16.   She Will Be Loved  – by Maroon 5

No beauty queen, she had some troubles with herself. No one was there to help her, she never belonged to anyone. When she will be loved?

17.   Unintended – Showbiz by Muse

You would be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions; you would be the one I’ll always love…

18.   Plug in baby – Origin Of Symmetry by Muse

To forget the dishonest love.

19.   Knights of Cydonia – Black Holes and Revelations by Muse

Wait for no Knight to come and save you, be a saviour to yourself.

20.   Desert rose – Brand New Day by Sting

I dream a lot and mostly nice dreams. Pleasant dream or nightmare? It’s a lot easier to have a nightmare and wakeup to believe it’s not real, than shattering of dream and facing the cruel reality.

21.   Naughty-naughty – Cash movie by various artist

Stupid I, once upon a time I wanted to be transformed like Diya. ;)

22.   Blackbirds – by Linkin Park

Inspiration for my writing, started blogging while listing this song.

23.   Uprising – The Resistance by Muse

Rise and revolt.

24.   Sajni – Boondh a drop of Jal by Jal

Thanks to brother again for this beautiful gift.

25.   Hotel California

Simply Epic!

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Fear

It was a dark and stormy night, and the weather forecasts for next two days did not look any better.  Damn, the precious weekend would be spoiled in vain. Yes, dear God what do you want me to do now, sit at home and crib about bad weather on FB/twitter?
The bus jerked and stopped, giving a halt to my thoughts. As soon as I got down from bus, the immediate challenge for me was to reach just few meters away home. How can that familiar terrain look like a graveyard? The side walk trees that used to provide shadow, appeared moving ghosts, waiting for me to stumble and they would swallow me. The eyes of neighbor’s dog that used to sparkle with joy seemed emitting fatal laser beams, which would cut thru human flesh.  As I reached home the always welcoming metal gate, made creepy sound. I unlocked the door, and sighed with relief. The only sound inside home (the safe heaven) was the wind creeping from slits of windows and doors. Exhausted, I curled up on sofa. But, suddenly there was bright light coming from distant, and I heard a faint voice; the voice grew louder aggressively and someone was shaking me vigorously. I tried to absorb the spoken word; it’s almost 11 in the noon… Saturday doesn’t mean you would sleep whole day… My eyes opened at once, and there was Mum, the anger on her face sent chills down to my spine.  I argued: Let me sleep Mum, I couldn’t sleep properly, I’d frightening dreams. Mum: Don’t you dare watch horror movies again; they put fear in your mind.
I couldn’t agree more; yes, fear is only in our minds.

PS: Something I wrote for a contest that I did not win ;) 

Expectations

What are friends for? They are the family you have when you don’t have any. When you’re off, they would know, without you telling them, when you are happy they know and take you out to celebrate.  You choose them and let themselves into your lives. Not only sometimes, most of the times they know you better than what you know of yourself.  In friends it’s never my problem/ your problem it’s always our problem. One day without them would not be imaginable, it’s not the physical presence that is necessary, just the assurance that they will be there whenever you need them. Would come to help from the other side of world in your trouble, again not the presence is necessary, just few kind words would do.  And one day if they forget the most important day of the year for you, you become sad and feel lonely just because one of them has forgotten, while others are still there, but every single friend is important to you. Then don’t you have a right to be angry/sad? Are you then expecting too much? Where did all our thing go, then their problems become their problems and you become someone? Wouldn’t hell break over your head and the earth burn under your feet? And what was your fault, just the thing that you are expecting too much. Should you stop expecting from your friends too? Go become cynical and become walking dead? No expectations no disappointments; is life that simple?  

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Winter

Give me back my winter!

Winter has always been the best time of year for me. I’ve never liked summer, and if I could skip anytime in the year it would be summer. Though in school days summer holidays were awaited eagerly, but the enjoyment would last for first week only, then it would start to bore me. Long days with no playing in sunlight policy and hot nights without any power.

With winter comes lots of eating; Mum’s winter snacks, Dry fruits ladoos, gajar ka halwa, mutter pulaoo are to name few. Sitting in sunlight, sleeping with blankets, thinking ten times before touching water, breathing out from mouth to see the vapor, the wish of never coming out of bed, and lots of holidays! Yes, my skin would crack, but it is better than sunburns. No noise pollution of fans/ACs. Hot-water showers. Foggy mornings, peaceful afternoons, cool evenings and chilled nights. But all this was only till I was home, when I relocated to Hyderabad winter was taken from me; all those beautiful sweaters could never come out of closet. And in blessed IT industry I won’t get a day off in December let alone winter holidays. Obviously our US/UK clients have their festivals so we need to cover up the double tasks. I hope Pune will show some winter-mercy on me.

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